Tuesday, January 04, 2005

Big trouble

You ever been in one of those situations where you have to do something, you know you have to do it for someone's good, that that person is someone to whom you owe your life, but that person will think you betrayed them, even hate them when you do what needs to be done? And add to this a major Biblical injuction that you have to come pretty close to breaking. And then add to that the possibility of huge legal bills. And uncertainty - there is much uncertainty. Oh, and there are other people who have to join you in your action but you all hate the situation, even talking about it is dispicable. And the embarassment of even knowing about it, have I mentioned that? Have you ever known something and just plain been ashamed for even knowing it? But not only do you have to know it, but you have to talk about it with other people (With demons trying to push you over that fuzzy line into gossip.), and you have to take action that you really do not want to take. Action you do not know how to take. Oh and then there is a key person who's not up to the battle either physically or mentally, who's resolve waivers. Did I mention the fact that the best foreseable outcome still sucks? You've been in a situation like this? Then please, have mercy on me and pray to God for me, for I am in a situation like this now.

3 comments:

Karl said...

Oh, that hurt just to read it.

Lord have mercy.

Matt said...

Thank you, both.

Huw Richardson said...

With many prayers.
And not envying you at all!