Monday, October 24, 2016

Special Education, Sin, Confession.

I am sick with the flu right now.   I would love to go one year without getting sick.   I suppose lots of people would love that.
I've been on administrative leave from my my school since Thursday afternoon. One of my students who suffers from depression and oppositional-defiant disorder disrupted my classroom when I tried to get him to put away his cell phone. I thought he was going to attack me so to keep him from doing that and getting into horrible trouble I quickly moved away from him. He'll never know I protected him from having teacher assault on his record. I hope his next teacher can help him learn. Yes, his next teacher. I am not going to be at that school anymore. All my ED students freaked out. One threw a desk. several were crying. They were all extremely upset. A police officer had to come to the classroom and get me out safely. I'm meeting tomorrow with the Associate Superintendent about working at a different school. I am hoping for a history classroom and not another ED classroom. That was too hard.
About 4 A few weeks ago my truck got towed for being in one place for too long. (My car is broken down and needs a new engine, too.) It was broken down and I didn't have the money to get it fixed. Now I am living with a woman who would marry me but for some legal obstacles remaining from her previous marriage. It is not a good situation. Being a Christian and living in the world is not easy. I think this is why we pray for God to keep us from temptation. I have to get my life straightened out somehow. I haven't been able to go to Communion since Pascha 2016. I could go to Confession but I have read the Psalms. I know what what the Prophet King David said. I can not Confess sins and seek forgiveness when I know I am going to commit them again that very day. I need to figure out a way to marry her sacramentally without marrying her according to the laws of California. My bishop won't allow it. I heard Fr. Patrick Reardon in Chicago will but he is in Chicago and I am in San Jose. I have to do something fast. I feel my heart withering.


GretchenJoanna said...

I am always happy to see a new post from you. I hope you get another class to teach soon - so thankful for you having this new job. You will be in my prayers - may the Lord direct your path!

Elizabeth @ The Garden Window said...

The school experience sounds very disturbing; I am very glad you are unharmed.

Praying for you regarding the wedding, that a resolution may be found and that you may have the joy of the Sacraments once more.
May God bless you both.